Fact about Men/guy/boy or whatever...

I found this interesting fact about them...

"Truth is-He may have trouble holding on to relationships because he's caught up in himself "

The Quote For The Day..

Love is fragile...And we're not always it's best caretakers . we're just muddle through and do the best we can and hope that this fragile thing survives against all odds...  




I took this special quotes from one of my favorite movie The Last Song... That song really means a lot to me. it's just it...
I was in Ronnie's position in that movie...but im not as lucky enough like her....
And i was not that strong...
I already watched this movie for like lotsa times...And never get bored with it..Not even a lil..
And i cried everytime...
I like this line cos it's really open my eyes when her dad wrote it for her....

Airplanes..

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)

Yeah
I could use a dream or a genie or a wish
To go back to a place much simpler than this
Cause after all the partyin’ and smashin’ and crashin’
And all the glitz and the glam and the fashion
And all the pandemonium and all the madness
There comes a time where you fade to the blackness
And when you’re staring at that phone in your lap
And you hoping but them people never call you back
But that’s just how the story unfolds
You get another hand soon after you fold
And when your plans unravel
And they sayin’ what would you wish for
If you had one chance
So airplane airplane sorry I’m late
I’m on my way so don’t close that gate
If I don’t make that then I’ll switch my flight
And I’ll be right back at it by the end of the night

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)

Somebody take me back to the days
Before this was a job, before I got paid
Before it ever mattered what I had in my bank
Yeah back when I was tryin’ to get into the subway
And back when I was rappin’ for the hell of it
But now a days we rappin’ to stay relevant
I’m guessin that if we can make some wishes outta airplanes
Then maybe yo maybe I’ll go back to the days
Before the politics that we call the rap game
And back when ain’t nobody listened to my mix tape
And back before I tried to cover up my slang
But this is for the Cada, what’s up Bobby Ray
So can I get a wish to end the politics
And get back to the music that started this sh-t
So here I stand and then again I say
I’m hopin’ we can make some wishes outta airplanes

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)

The place tht i dreamed to be...

i just so damn tired ... no im not saying that im done with my life .
Its just i faced too much until i lost my self...
Why can't my life be like in the FAIRY TALE???
I can see that other people life seems so...EASY..
They always get what the have in mind without havin troubles to have it....
Just ask and get...tht's it..
But me...
I have to wait for something that i always wanted..and the things that i've been waiting not always i get..






I've been dreamin that in in this place where you can hear the wind blow...
the birds singing happily...
NO pollution... the world seems so quiet and .... peace to live in...
I just have to be me...I don't have to worry about others...cos there's no one else accept ME
There were places we would go at midnight...There were secrets that nobody would know...
I need to find that place....
I need to find where i belong...cos right now i feel like i don't belong here....
This is not my place...
I need to find the place where i can feel appreciated...feel bein love , no hate ...
the place where i don't have to feel bein left out anymore.....




I can't stay....I can't stay here...
The longer i stay...the more pain i carried inside of me...
I can't hurt my heart...it's already broke and i don't want to make it even more worst...
I don't want it to turn to black or stone..or numb..
I want to feel life again...
Please help me...Please...

Who's That Gurl...

There were places we would go at midnight
There were secrets that nobody else would know
There's a reason but I don't know why 
I don't know why
I don't know why
I thought they all belonged to me

Who's that girl?
Where's she from?
No she can't be the one
That you want
That has stolen my world
It's not real, it's not right
It's my day, it's my night
By the way
Who's that girl living my life?
Oh no, living my life

Seems like everything's the same around me 
When I look again and everything has changed
I'm not dreaming so I don't know why
I don't know why
I don't know why
She's everywhere I wanna be

Who's that girl?
Where's she from?
No she can't be the one
That you want
That has stolen my world
It's not real, it's not right
It's my day, it's my night
By the way
Who's that girl living my life?

I'm the one who made you laugh
Who made you feel
Who made you sad
I'm not sorry
But what we did
And who we were
I'm not sorry 
I'm not her

Who's that girl?
Where's she from?
No she can't be the one
That you want
That has stolen my world
It's not real, it's not right
It's my day, it's my night
By the way
Who's that girl living my life?
Oh no, living my life

Just Wondering...

Am i not good enough to feel HAPPY???
-crying-
Why every time i have to feel SAD???
I can't stand this anymore...i feel like...i feel like i have no reason to laugh or to be happy...
Like..ok look..every time i think i feel happy...it's just not for long tho..
there's always something's gonna stop me from bein happy...Why???
i just need a moment of my life that i can cherish...at least -crying-
u took everythin from me....u took the one tht i love...and now..u wanna take this relationship tht i have too???
Please..please i can't face it...

I need a break...

-crying-

I had enough cry of my life..and im tired of crying for the same damn thing!!!
i know i shouldn't blame the FATE...but why it's bein too cruel to me...
what did i have done???
till i've been punished this way???
I don't understand a thing here ok..
EXPLAIN it to me...

My Other Dad...

Ok....this is actually my lecture his name is Ronnie R. He's now is my adopted or unofficial dad...he's nice, kind, and he care for me as his daughter...I told him about all my probs...and he helps me a lot with his good old advices...I LOVE YA DADDY!!! When im talkin to him...i was like talkin with my real dad ya know...
he's been there when i need him..always..:)
Daddy.. even though u're not my real dad but i love you like a real one....u're great father dad...I'll be ok as long as u're there to guide me all the way....:) 

If and only if...

I wanna give this to him ... if i get the chance to meet him . Well this necklaces, it was my dad bought for me n my old timw EX bf E(is for me) G(Goldspink my ex family name) ... Since his name in facey is GETSUDA so he still can wear it...I don;t have a chance to give this to my ex when we're still together cos i moved frm NY to here...I've decided to give to him my new bf when i meet him in the future...
He texted me last mornin and said tht he's scared...he scared if he can't take care of me and he scared if i can't stand him ...I cried when i read those text everytime...still have it on my inbox ...i don't want to delete it...
Im in the dark b4 he came into my life ...and now im scared if he wanna END THIS relationship ... I can't lose you cos i LOVE you and i need you in my life....i have no one else ...eventhough somethin terrible happened to me , i still have a reason to hold on too ... and it was you ... if i had to lose you i don't know if i can survive ... i told you tht my heart would stop without you ... im not scaring you or sumthin but im jst teelin you what i feels ... Im not gonna let you go ... not until u ask for it ... I LOVE YOU from the bottom of my heart ... i don't know if u trust me or not but i still wanna say it ...
You're makin me happy eventhough whoever be in my place right now would cry non stop after what happened ... but im surprised tht i still can smile and laugh like nothin happen ...
Look ... i accepted you for the way you are not what you are .. i don't need your money or whatever ...
All i need is you to LOVE me as i am ...Appreciate me ... Please call me honey ... Please ... I MISS YOU ...

Today i turned on my lappy in the car just to watched my fav. music videos...
i listen to this song from Miley Cyrus -Stay-
it makes me cry...this song reminds me a lot about my dad...plus the movie The Last Song also same as my life...its like i watched my life flashes before my eyes...
I love this movie alot...
I really MISS my DAD...He's gone now...But when i watched the stars up in the sky sometimes i can hear he said that he miss me ...i hope he's doing the same by lookin at the stars...He used to told me that if u see one star shining brightly from the others..that's me...
he said that he'll never leave me..ever...
Dad...i'll be fine here ...just because of this i don't know how to love anybody else dad...
im scared...im scared of losing.
i..i just need you daddy....please don't leave me...If....If i could have just one wish..i'd have you by my side...
i don't know how to move on without you...it seems hard to live without you....eventhough no matter how hard i've tried....Please....Please help me..

LIFE...

Everyone knows that LIFE is never EASY...
Troubles keeps on come and go
It will never leave us...
Because it wanna show us our ownself..
It teaches us to be PATIENCE , BRAVE , GROW UP ,  INDEPENDENCE , and TRUST ourself..
No one can stand the PAIN of the tests but there's always the GOOD thing behind it... 
Like what other people said that the GOOD things TAKE TIME
But really GREAT things happen in A BLINK OF AN EYE...
We just can't see it until we feel it . 




LIFE...
It could be WONDERFUL if we really live every minutes of it and value every time we spent for the LOVE one...Never ever regret th things that we've done in the PAST because it's past...
You can never REWIND it back . 
LIFE...
It could be DISASTER if we blew away the time that we only have one chance to live it...We never have SECOND CHANCES TO LIVE LIFE ya know..
Don't put on your HOPE to HIGH or else you're gonna CRASHINDOWN too HARD...
Just believe that there's always have HOPE in everything but don't  really count on it...
TRY our best to get the thing that we want in LIFE ...We will feel satisfied when we get the thing that we want by our own hands...
So 
APPRECIATE YOUR LIFE...
LIVE IT
BREATHE IT
BE IT
FEEL IT
Even though its not always GOOD...
Smile always...

Hmmm..think bout it..

LOVE...
what the hell is it???
Hmm
Alot people said that its a feelin where we can feel the adrenaline rushes thru our body when we feelin nervous around the person that we like...
But i think it has to be MORE than that rite???
Im not sure if im ready for this relationship..because i think im not ready
Im scared....i don't even know what im afraid of
Im sorry if im not bein good enough for you or im not being the perfect girlfriend for you...
I don't know how to LOVE you because i don't even know what LOVE is all about..
I can LOVE you with all my heart cos im scared if i might gonna lose you like what had happen in the past..
i don't want the same things happens all over again...no...i can't!
I really wanna know what is the great things about this LOVE stuff..
Can someone tell me what is this LOVE means???

Good Things Happen In A Blink Of An Eye...

Dear Diary...

I don't know what else to say..just sorry cos its been a long time  didn't 
write anything......
Btw i tgh PENDING right now cos there's monsters in here...and i feel like i can't handle them anymore....:'(
im too tired for all this....im not good in babysit a kid...only a baby yeah i can.........




Hmmmmm


Owh yeah i forgot to tell what is goin on between me and Aly...
well... i guess its just better if we end it..i cant continue this relationship with a LIAR like her....I just had enough of it..
Right now my priority in my life is my mom, my life, and my bf that's all matter......




like i used to said i don't give a damn if u wanna hate me or whatever...I DON'T CARE!!! U get that??
Do whatever u wanna do....please satisfied yourself...In the end im not gonna lose anything..Im still me..And im not gonna change myself for nobody.....


huhhh....