Ermmm ....

I've taken off his necklace ....
Cos he taken off our charm bracelet that i never like opne it since the day i bought it at Genting Highland ...
But lately he's treated me kinda a bit different .. Last time i checked he like never kiss me on my cheeks like he did today infornt of his frend KOI ...
He lately suka cubit my cheeks =__= like last time ...
huhuu what had happen to him actually ... ???!
but eventhough i didnt wear his necklace i hope that ONE DAY he'll PUT IT BACK ... on my neck ...
I really2 LOVE HIM ... HUrmm ..

There comes a time when u have to choose between turning the page or just closing the book

That's the cue for me ... 
I can't hold someone that love someone else .. he just consider me as his Best Friends ... I thought that imma be okay with that but ... i guess im not OKAY ... i can't bare to hear all his heart pouring about how he feels towards her ... It HURTS like hell to hear all that stuff -.-'
Does he knows how painfull is that ?? haihhh~
He doesn't even care what i feel so why should i care about what he feels right ???!
This is sooo CRUEL !
Hurmmm ....
I don't know why i still wanna hold on to this kinda boy -.- seriously i feel STUPID ...
He doesn't love me at all ! He already stop tryin to love me and now im not more than his FRIENDS ... That's sad to know and harder to accept that fact =_='
WHY IS HAVE TO BE THIS HURT ???!
I HATE THIS FEELINGS !!!

A Letter from ME to YOU my Heartbeat

Dear sweety ...
First of all i wanna say that i am sorry for my lack of self pity in me lately it's because i keep on thinkin how do i gonna live without ya in my heart ... I MISS YOU ... I MISS US ... i miss everythin about us ... about YOU ... the way you callin me ... the way you treated me ... the way we laugh in the middle of the night talkin craps together ... Sometimes we talked about our future life bein together ... MOSTLY i miss the way you spoiled me !!! The way you smiling at me in the moornin when we woke up ... the way you tease my hair ... the way you kiss me ... How can i left this all thing behind ??? Can you ??? Am i stupid for kept on tryin and not losing hope on US ? Even if i have to holds on alone for our love .. i don't mind it ... cos you're the only matters in me ... I guess you don't know how much you meant to me do ya ....
Well sookay you'll realize it one day i hope ... I will pray that one day you'll runnin back to me :)
I wanna you to know that I LOVE YOU ... I know that you're the ONE ... even if im not you're ONE ... but i wanna be your LAST ...

"And when life has passed me by and it's taken back it's time.. all i know is you're The One ... And as long as my heart beats till you come back to me .. i'll be holding on our love"

This song i dedicated just for you ... Haihhh~ it'll be much better if you can understand this song and even listen to it =_='

All I Can Do Is Pray ...

Forcing someone else feelings is WRONG ...
I can do NOTHIN bout it ... But still im hoping for it to happen =')
I know it sounds crazy to you but not to me .. Somewhere somehow i believe there's a MIRACLE ...
I don't know what is goin with me ... I just don't wanna let this thing go eventhough i know that he's in love with another girl ... Im afraid if he ever come back i will not gonna feel the same towards him .. i don't want that !
I wanna be with him ... we can't be apart ! cos apart of me is YOU .. and somewhere inside you is ME i don't know maybe ... I know that 99% of him not feels the same about me anymore but another 1% is keeps me HOLDIN ON ... I never gonna let go do you hear me ??! no matter what you're tellin me about her how she makes you feels , how beautiful she is but she never gonna be ME ... and you and i both know that she can never loves you like i do ... im not mad at you ... it's all have been my fault for puttin my hope too high and i loved you more than you loved me so yeahh it's all is MY FAULT ... not you ...
Im the one who's bein too much here ... i should've known that you're not ready to get attached .... and i gave away too much to you than what you should get ... so yeahh IT'S MY FAULT ..
Im soo STUPID i know that ... 


haihhh .......


But one thing that im afraid of is Do i barely strong enuf to see if you're bein with her someday ??? Can i let go of you ?? I don't know what i do ! ='( im afraid ....

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ahahahahhah...its all our sweet memory......

its about me aNd you

                                                           
    Mle2 member ajak lepak...then i follow...mmmm..kat c 2...i saw 1guy yg ske buat lawak gle2...mmmm...kte g karoke pla...u asyik bahan i nyanyi,...mmm...so i pun dah naek nakal..huhuhu...mse tuu...i xtw name u siape..ahahah...i happy hang out ngan u..then kte g titiwangsa...and sangat2 funny ble u nak ehemmm.tapi  toilet b"kunci...ahhahahh...cian u mse tuuu...the story is begin already when u try to talk with me....u cter tntng ex u...so i pn cter tntng ex i...n malang nyer ex i towh...member u...ahahahhaha...funny....

 mse kte kua...u tak mntak number i....i pn xde number u...dah brape hari brlalu...i dont see u anymore...sad...mmm..pd satu hari..ahahha...i trn g sar...n i nmpak u...happy gler...hhuhu...then u gve me ur number...kte pn start texing...cuti sem dah start...i pla tertinggal flight...huuu...i lpak kat umah u...and d sne ar i knal kakak i yg i syg sngt2...ahahahha...EMMA...mse i kat umah u...u lyn i baek sngt...u tlng buat air...u tlng i masak maggie...ahahah...and u yg kemas everythng...huhuhu..then we take our pic together...i tak taw knape i rase happy...feel like im falling in love with u...u pun ajak i kapel...i dah rase omg....tak tw nak ckp pe....cos i pk tentang u n ex i...u kawan ngan dye....

hummm...tpi ntah..i trme u...my mum calling...dye dah beli tiket baru balik sabah...i pun balik...then u pun balik seremban...u sweet sngt...u snggup tman i 4 two weeks...n jd udang...the bad story is begining...when i at sabah...u asyik tnye tntng ex i...u..u nak tw tak that time im really going down...u ask me..u tanak ex i tarik mke ngan u..kte break ta smpai brape jam pun..then emma kol me...she tell me u engage ngan ex u...i pn ta tw nak wat pe..im crying again....im coming back to kl...n meet u again...i still anggap u as my bf..i still lpak ngan u...and hug u..i tahu u dah return ngan  gf u..tpi i mash dengan u...tpi...u xhargai pon...so i rase better i let u go je lah...u bkan untuk i...segala knangan i dgn u..i xpnah lpe kan..n now...i jd member u je...i hargai ape pn relation kte skrg...even i ta dpt be with u..i jd member u pn...dah ok...u tak fahm..u tak rase..i ketawe...im trying to hide my sadness...n now...im afraid to falling in love...i tak nak i terluke lg...i hope u happy with u gf...and...as u know...i still love u......and i jd a lonely girl back...maybe this is the gud way 4 me......