Okay ... We went to Cherating to have an amazing holiday at the beach plus my someone is staying there either .. Who else went with me .. hurm let see .. Ady , acap , and their cousin and my someone ... So tht means im the only gurl ^_^
But yeahh it was awesome .. the four of us share the same chalet .. chalet awned by MARIO .. my someone's school mate .. He's cute >< and his mixed malay and poland .. muka dia mcm Zain Saidin .. SERIOUSLY !!
Well ... yeah we had a BBQ party at my someone's parent house cos his momma wanna have it XD for the 1st time ... IT WAS FUN !! Thnks auntie and uncle ... i'll miss you guys ..
Then i woke up wayyyyy to early in the mornin i think i woke up around 6 am sumthin ...just to watch sun rise at the beach near our chalet ...
here's the photos ...
owhh2 me and h8im wokeup together and we take a strolls down at the beach to wait for this sun riseee happen ... and this is another photos of us .. our hands actually -..-
Well ... yeahh thts about it ... im happy .. for now ...
Well let see ...
Hurm okay technically on Jan 2nd we both decided to breakup for temporary cos he's not ready for any relationship ... well since i have no right to force him cos im jst nobody -.-'
then now i feels like my world has come crushin down all over again .. GREAT !
I feel crumbled up inside ='(
DO U KNOW HOW HURT IT IS ???? FUCK !!
I hate the idea of fallin in LOVE again .. well thts what im facin now ... Bein left out ALL OVER AGAIN =..='
Nice feelings isn't it ?? yeahh figures ...
It's true tho 'We're goin to be happy and we're goin to fall , we need to know that life isn't perfect and that is what makes it best of all ..im pretty but not beautiful , im good but not an angel , i do sin but inm not the devil .. im jst a small girl in this world tryin to find someone to LOVE ... it is sad when it has to be this way but i trust him .. i know he could be the one for me ... litterally im jst his somebdy ... not his gurl but somebdy .. i don't know what concept is that but yeah thats about it ... we talked yesterday .. he said he's not ready .. i get it .. i know how he feels like ... so im givin him chance to be ready .. i'll jst have to wait ...but the problem here is ..i don't know if he want me to wait or not ... but i'll jst wait ... my heart tellin me to ...
