I have waited for so long for a right guy to walks into my life ... I have met up a lot of wrong ones before and i admit it that i almost give up to be in the relationship anymore -___-
I know it sounds pathetic but yeaaahh it is !
But since JULY this year .. i felt it again ... LOVEY DOVEY stuff ni ... Lucky me i know XD
On 25 nov ary tu .. I went to TS to watch Twilight"Breakin Dawn" then after that we both headed to Wangsa Maju to have dinner with his parent and his brother *my classmate* ...
Then his parent drove me home ... huhuhuuu ~.~
He said somethin after the dinner when we both walked to the car ... He said "When kita nk jd mcm Bella n Edward? " then i said "Like Bella n Edward?? what u mean ?" .. "Ya laa get married and honeymoon and havin a baby.." and i was smilling like an idiot then "Erkk what .. you cant wait to become a dad or what??" he replied "I guess so" And i was like WoHOOOOOO !! >.<
I was super excited all of the sudden XD like a adrenaline rushin to my blood vessel ! I've never heard that type of talks with any of my Ex's before ... Do u get me ?? Do u understand what im talkin bout here ??? 0_o
I know i shouldn't put my hope to high on him but what else can i do ... Im in LOVE ... I know i hope to high , fall to fast , trust to easily , but i can't fight this feelings ... Everyone sayin that nothin last forever ... but i trust him .. eventhough i know he's not that 100% bein honest with me ... But i don't care ... I know and i believe he could be the one ... he'll be a great man one day ... my man <3 ...
I jst need to give him time to grown up ... be more patience with him ... I just know it ...
I have faith in you baby ... i just do .. I know you'll never gonna read this but i hope you know that I LOVE YOU and i will never gonna leave you ...( Mark My Word )
You're my HeartBeat ...
You're the BEST i've ever had in my life ... You're the only thing that can make me smile no matter how bad my day is ... i wanted our love as strong as Bella and Edward ... Will stick together no matter what happen ...
i just wish that >.<
I LOVE YOU
BABY ...
I FEEL LIKE CRYIN .... ='(
I don't really know why .. i know it's my brthday ...still for few mins more b4 12 ...
All i do today ON MY BRTHDAY is
* Dtg college met up my bby and my frens ..
* Hang out at college for few hours ..
* Went to Pavillion (Hopin to watch TWILIGHT) but the timing is not right -.-'
* Watched the shop workers made candies at The Sticky (somewhere in Pavi)
* Went to BB waited my mom to fetch us to havin dinner together ...
*Dinner at the Steak House .. Somewhere in Kampung Baru (Mom , me , my bby , and one of our fren) The food pun xsdp sgt .. masin !!
* Sent them both at Hostel then headed back home -.-'
What a niceeeeee brthday of the year ever .....
Next time xnk laa celebrate lg It's okay .. It seems like it not that very IMPORTANT thing to remember right ...
I wanted a REAL BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION not just makan2 or hangin out n do NOTHIN !
What happen today is not what i EXPECTED as what it should be !
I wanted on my brthday , all the people who i love is there celebrating it with me !
YES I AM MAD RIGHT NOW !
YES I AM SAD
I AM DISAPPOINTED !!
For me Birthday should be somethin that you can CHEERISH for that year and be remembered for the REST OF YOUR LIFE !!
If you have THIS kind of thing yg you called CELEBRATION ... i think i pun rather not celebrate it ...
Well this year i don't think my momma will celebrate my brthday cos no one is here plus my brother stay outside and momma will probably be busy that time =_=
We always celebrate mine evry year but this year im kinda havin this vision that nothin's gonna happen .. i guess so ...
But since my daddy's brthday is on the same month i guess i'll celebrate it too ='( Im totally miss-ing him like HELL ...
I wonder if he's still around my life would be much better ... He's my HERO ... i still remember when i was a kid he'll read me a story book mostly about FAIRYTALE one ... He told me that "sometimes fairytale does givin u hope to move forwards, but don't to rely on it , u gotta work it on urself" ... He gave me a lot of advise .. Well not to mention he's a Rock&Roll kinda man but he's a such wonderful , loving , caring , sweetest daddy i ever had ...
No one .. No one can ever replace him ! He used to told me " no matter what happen you'll always be my angel bby Em" yeah he call me bby Em .... But now he's gone but i know he's in the better place eventhough it's not here with me i know he's happy over there ^_^
Well daddy .. i'll be just fine here .. evrythin happen for a reason so i guess there will be a good reason behind all this ...
I MISS YA DADDY <3
Sincerely from ur daughter ...
