There's a lot happened to me in this fuckin month ... I almost get raped at PM hostel ~_~
It's all because of the one person that LOVE to cari pasal with me .. I don't know what's up with her 0.o
But the point here is he's change a lot ... well he told me that the girl that he falls in love already in relationship so it makes me thinkin if im only his Second Choice or just his Backup Plan ??
When that girl kinda layan him , he ignored me GILA2 ... He doesn't even care what i feels at that time ... I still remember everything .. the way he treated me , the way he talked to me .. it all seems IGNORING me ...
i can felt that ... Now when she's in relationship , he turns back to be diffierent ! He started bein the one that takes care of me , worried about me , call me up , texted me up , kiss me , cubit my pipi , kiss my cheeks infornt of everybody ... What is goin on ???!
He said that he doesn't want any relationship for now ... He said that he doesn't want to hurt me anymore like what he had done before ... Okay i get it ... He said if we're meant to be together we will be one day ...
For now we're both still that close , together but no relationship .. I don't know what are we ... It's not like Friends with Benefit cos we're not friends ! i can see him as a friends cos i love him .. and he same as me either .. so honestly i don't know what kinda relationship that we're IN right now ... I don't know what to expect from this kinda situation ...
I really-really don't wanna lose him ... i can't be without him ...
Baby , please don't .. please don't leave me will ya ?
Cos you're my heartbeat .. and my heart would stop without ya ... i can't bare to lose you ..
Even how many times i've tried to leave you , NONE of them works !!
So i'll stay here waiting for you ... cos im sure that you're the one for me ...
