Damn ...

Hurmm ...

Honestly i don't know what to say cos i barely have no words in my head -.-''
But all i wanted to say is IM SO IN LOVE with him <3 <3 <3 <3
When we spent time together i can feel my heart skipped it's beats ... and it feels so right =)
You make me wanna jumpin up and down all the way .....
He used to asked me What Type Of Guy that i dig ...
Well honestly i have no type its just if i like that some1 then he's my type .. you got me ??
Well when im with him i feel soooo secure and i feel like i couldn't be apart from him ...
I miss his SMILE , his HUGS , his KISS , his LAUGH , everythin !!
I miss the time when we do stupid stuffs .. then laugh without no reason , screamin like hell ...
I miss all that .. 

All i ever wanted is you by my side forever ....
I promise that i'll try to be the best for you ... and i swear that you'll never be lonely cos i'll never ever gonna leave you bby .. i promise all this !

I miss the days when tying my shoes were the hardest thing to do. Now, it's learning to smile when everything inside tells me to cry

There's a story behind every person. There's a reason why they're the way they are ..
My life is not always like a fairytale .. It's more towards nightmare .. But somehow there's someone who willing to walk in it and want to be part of it .. Im GLAD ;)
But somehow the pain is still there but jst didn't feel pain as much as before ... kinda ease a bit ...
My life is a TOTAL MESS ... It's all bein ups and downs since like FOREVER ... And now i have no one else that i could turn to except all my BestFrends and my BBY ...
They all the reason behind my smiles .. They all the reason for me to be strong and face anythin tht came thru my way ... Im might be lost without them all  .. i <3 you guys soo much especially HIM ;)
Thnks for evrythin guys .. You guys is my strength to live my life .. Hope we'll stay like this way forever ... And i hope all the wishes i made at the Genting  may come thru ... 


Much Love
Emma Stevens <3

In This Moment ...

In this moment im cryin over missing him ... i know it sounds stupid but thts jst it :'(
Damn i wish him were here with me .... He's special for me .. thts why i told ya its all jst like a dreams to me .. Its too good to be true .. why he's bein so nice to me ?? willing to put a smile on my face ... Hinestly he knows how to makes me smile even when im cryin :)
He's soo fuckin sweet .. This is one of our photo together at Genting ...

He's stole my heart since the 1st time i actually met him at the basement <3 <3 <3 tht moment kept on playing on my head bby ...
i <3 u so much kay
will be update this again later ... im too tired now =='

My life at this stage ...

I used to feel scared to fall in love again cos i think they will jst eventually walk out of my life no matter how close we are   -_____-'

Im gettin hurt all over again in the past ... It hurts like HELL .. 

But now im learnin to except the fact that no matter how hard im tryin to deny myself from falling in love instead of fallin apart i kept on fallin for love ....

On July early this year ... I accidently met this one fine guy name R ...

We first met at the college basement ... He admitted that he actully like me when the 1st time we met ... LOVE IN THE 1st SIGHT ^_^

Hehehe actually me too =='

He shows me a lot about this LOVE things and he even taught me a lot bout LIFE ...

he's not only my BOYFRIEND but he's my BESTFRIEND too .. thts wht i like it ...

He's charmin and he makes me falling in love with him evrytime !

We're goin out for few weeks then he asked me out ... The declaration happened at BB infront of a live band ... We're jst sat there n watchin the show .. all of the sudden he asked me to hold his hand and he said ..

" Can i be your BOYFRIEND ?" ..

I .. i was shocked with my jaw opened .. i stuttered asked him .." You're jokin rite ??!"

Eventually he's not jokin -___-

For a few second later i said "YES" with a big smile on my face ... XD

I've been waitin for him to said that ... That's wht im wishin for at the fountain infront of Pavillion that day ! ^^

Im soo BLESSed !!!

Since that day we're happily together ... and last night on Sept 5th his family invited me to join them karaoke-ing with whole family at SOGO until 3am in the mornin ..

it was fun like HELL .... I'll never ever gonna forget that day in my life ... Im gonna rite a journal bout my life story with him .. who know someday my kids wanna know my lil story XD

P/s : i'll let my kids knows our love stories later in life ... I LOVE YA ALWAYS <3