IGNORANCE !

If I'm a bad person, you don't like me
Well, I guess I'll make my own way
It's a circle, a mean cycle
I can't excite you anymore

Where's your gavel? Your jury?
What's my offense this time?
You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me
Well, sentence me to another life

Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
'Cause you know we're not the same
No, we're not the same, oh, we're not the same

We're the friends who stuck together
We wrote our names in blood
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good
It's good, it's good

Well, you treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend

This is the best thing that could've happened
Any longer and I wouldn't have made it
It's not a war, no, it's not a rapture
I'm just a person but you can't take it

The same tricks that, that once fooled me
( From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/p/paramore-lyrics/ignorance-lyrics.html )
They won't get you anywhere
I'm not the same kid from your memory
Well, now I can fend for myself

Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
'Cause you know we're not the same
No, we're not the same, oh, we're not the same

Yeah, we used to stick together
We wrote our names in blood
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good
It's good, it's good

Well, you treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
Well, I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
Well, I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend

Well, you treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
Well, I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

FrIeNdShIp ..

Ok here's the thing .. wht is friendship means in your oppinion ?? If you're askin me back jst in case =)
For me friendship is about TRUSTING EACH OTHER n not gonna LEAVE them no matter what happens cos you know your BEST FRIEND better then any other person can .. You should have no doubt on him/her .. For me its so CRUCIAL cos best friend is the one that so hard to be replace.. FRIEND is the one who we can turns to when we have no one is willing to listen to our problems.. This friend is the one who's gonna stand up for us if rest of the world would  have turns their back on us .. I've been lied to the person that i thought we both could be BFF till we died .. but i guess i was totally wrong ! She left me jst because of ONE GUY .. i can't believe that would've actually happened 0_0
I miss the time that we both bein silly at school .. played our games in our lil magic world that we've shared and all the old stuff that we both used to shared.. she even made a promised with me that either we both will never ever gonna leave each other till our last breathe .. but now .. she's the one who have walked out from her promised ='( 
The last time that i've ever talked to her was when she called me to say "Hi" then she asked for apologizes for what she did before then she asked me to go to MIDVALLEY..ya know hangout like normally we do before..
I went there cos i believed her .. but..
when i was there for like 2-3 hours no signed of her .. i did called/texted her for like 20 times..not either one of them she reply till now ==' i was stupid i know cos i actually believed her words ..
Then now .. i got this friend which is older than me .. the rest of my friend said that she jst takin advantages on me..she jst using me for her own purposed i don't know.. im jst willing to do anythin for my friends .. For example if i only have one dollar in my purse .. i would've split it for both of us .. im that type of friend who can't bare to see any of my friend suffer while me havin fun ==' For me if my friend is suffer then we'll shared everythin.. i'll help you as i can .. Im not the type who will leave a friend jst because they're in trouble..IM NOT THAT TYPE ! i love all my friend but why these kinda person still exist ? Am i too naive till they can walks on my head ? is it wrong what i do to my friends??? 
But im still LUCKY cos i've found my trully BFF now.. we both knowing each other by accident (long twisted story)
Her name is ATHIRAH.. i will say that she could understand me better then anyone else would .. I LOVE YOU DARLIN <3 ..
you're my BFF forever n ever.. i'll never gonna leave you alone and im always here when you need me..
I MISS YOU ALOT !! btw thnks for bein my friend =) i feel so glad to know you in the first place .. never thought we both could end up as BESTIES after wht we've been thru before .. i bet people will think its INSANE .. but there's no IMPOSSIBLE that we can't make it as POSSIBLE in this small world =)
JUST BELIEVE THAT YOU CAN MAKES A DIFFERENT ..

Erk..

Its has been few days..im less cry-ing now...ahakz =P
Well..he did text me since i approved his fren request few days back . Hmm
But before he sent me tht request we've been poke-ing each other...it was me who started the poke-ing..i was stalking his page(still wonder why i did tht) then i was eager to press the POKE button..so i did !
then after a few minutes he POKE me bck...and this continue till few days either...then he started to sent me a msg on my inbox sayin "still mad at me?" and i replied "nooo..even i want to but it seems like i cant =='
u got the strong reason to pulled out from our stuff.." .. he kept on sayin how sorry he is to me and how sad he felt when he found out that i deleted him form my friendlist ..haisss

i was confused here.. and i don't know wht should i do..cos its like i've tried every possible way to actually WALK AWAY from this guy but i end up with STALKIN on his wall =='

I know...Imma DORK =..=

I MISS HIM ok.. and worst is i can't help it =( All my fren say i was fuck up..but this is wht happened when you jst break up with some1 who you love the most ! you probably end up like this if you're in my shoes ! 

ARGHHHhhh!!!

I need him soo bad ! 

I'll be waitin for you here...

Because i ..

I'll be ...

I wish..

I wish to hold his hand again... If i got that chances i'll promise that i'll never gonna let go... I <3 him

Hmmm...
Did you feel like i feel now ?
i wonder did you miss me like i do?
do you still <3 me?
why did you let me go?
do you still want me in your life?
wht do you feel now?
will you come bck???


Adoiiii why laa all this keep on shuffle-ing in my head ! 

I don't understand this~

We're both done~
Tp kenape hati emma xleyh nk lupakn dia?? Hati nie ckp he's the one..sebab emma taw dia mcm mne..emma knl dia..Dia xkn sakitkn hati emma tanpa sebab...and i think dia ade strong reason to pulled out from our realtionship =_=
emma rindu dia sangat2...emma harap dia pown rindu kt emma mcm mne emma rindu kt dia..hmmm ...
sakit jgk kn rasenyer syg kt org yg kite dh taw dia bukan milik kite lg =_= sdeynyer rase bile igt kat dia.
 dia taw x yg emma rindu kt dia? hmm i wish to call him "syg/hunny/bie"..tp skunk nk pggl dia 'U' mcm pelik jew..rase janggal sgt nk pggl dia mcm tuh after clash =_='
knp laa benda ni jadi kt akuh ?! aku baru nk happy2 dh jd mcm nie plak...cepat btol TUHAN tarik nikmat bahagia akuh ='(  KNP AKUH?! emma syg gile kt dia..kalau boleh emma harap relationship tuh xkn putus sampai bile2... sebab emma taw dia syg emma...kot.. tp knp emma sdey nie???! emma penat laa mcm nie .. x larat dh nk nangis2 nie... 
Sape2 kenal dia tolong emma ckp kt dia yg emma rindu kt dia..
emma syg kt dia.. xde sape leyh syg emma mcm mne dia syg emma ='(
Emma akan tunggu dia .. emma xnk cari org laen lg.. sbb bg emma , emma mmg nk cari hubungan yg serious n bukan maen2.. emma dh xnk tukar2 BF lg..lepas ape yg jd kat emma dulu emma dh x nk dh..kalau ini yg last utk emma , emma terime jew.. emma akan mcm ni sampai emma sedia and hati emma dh terbukak utk CINTA lg .
LOVE tuh dtg dan pergi dlm hidup ni tp emma x penah lupe ape yg jd kt emma dulu..emma igt lg tarikh2 bile emma date , clash , name2 EX's n ape diorg dh buat kt emma..emma xpenah lupe sume tuh..xtaw laa knp...haihhhh
Ya Tuhan.. Kenape laa hidup emma cam nie? cube laa bg emma happy pulak .. asyik sedih2 jew penat laa emma .... HELP !!!
Bie jgn tgglkn emma please ~ 

I <3 YOU !

StUcK iN tHe MoMeNt WiTh YoU

With you,
With you,
I wish we had another time,
I wish we had another place...

Now Romeo & Juliet,
bet they never felt the way we felt,
Bonnie & Clyde,
Never had the hide like,
We do,
We do...

You and I both know it can't work,
It's all fun and games,
'til someone gets hurt,
And I don't,
I won't let that be you...

Now you don't wanna let go,
And I don't wanna let you know,
that there might be something real between us too, who knew?
Now we don't wanna fall but,
We're tripping in our hearts and it's reckless and clumsy,
'cause I know you can't love me 

Yea...

I wish we had another time,
I wish we had another place,
But everything we have is stuck in the moment,
And there's nothing my heart can't do (Can't Do),
To fight with time and space 'cause,
I'm still stuck in the moment with you...

Like Adam & Eve,
Tragedy was a destiny,
Like Sunny & Cher,
I don't care,
I got you baby...

See we both,
Fightin' every inch of our fiber,
'cause in a way,
It's gonna end right but,
We are both too foolish to stop...

Now you don't wanna let go,
And i don't wanna let you know,
that there might be something real between us two, who knew? 
And we don't wanna fall but,
We're tripping in our hearts and it's reckless and clumsy,
And i know you can't love me 
http://www.elyricsworld.com/stuck_in_the_moment_lyrics_justin_bieber.html

Yea...

I wish we had another time,
I wish we had another place,
But everything we have is stuck in the moment,
And there's nothing my heart can't do (Can't Do), 
To fight with time and space 'cause,
I'm still stuck in the moment with you...

See like,
Just because this cold cold world saying we can't be,
Baby, we both have the right to disagree,
And i ain't with it,
And i don't wanna be so old and grey,
Reminiscing 'bout these better days,
But convince just telling us to let go,
So we'll never know...

I wish we had another time,
I wish we had another place,
'cause everything we did,
And everything we have is stuck in the moment,
Yeahhh...

I wish we had another time,
I wish we had another place,
But everything we have is stuck in the moment,
And there's nothing my heart can't do,
(Nothing my heart can't do),
To fight with time and space 'cause,
I'm still stuck in the moment with you,
Yeah,
Whoa whoa...

Haihhhh..... =='

Hmmmmm........................ I've tried..
I've tried evrythin that i could to get over him but it seems like i can't ... I CAN'T  do it ! why????!
He's the one who asked me to do this but WHY the hell i always need to stalking on his page???!
Im gone mad ! Arghhh somebody SAVE me from this pleaseee ~
I can't go on like this anymore ! I HATE BEIN IN THIS SITUATION ! Why do i have to miss you like this?
If i know it a lil bit earlier i'll not gonna let you in ! Fuck laa u ..
I MISS YOU and i can't help it ...
I LOVE YOU !
I NEED YOU ! pleasee come bck ~ pleaseee don't leave me ..

My SwEeT hEaRt -ShIrO-

THIS IS MY SHIRO ~

TIDO time ahaaha cute am i rite ?

I LOVE her sooo fuckin much !!!

SHIROOOO dun ever leave me ok baby =)

Ella ...my beautiful sister ever..!

Nie laa my sister from Indonesia ...Her name is ELLA .. cantik kn dia..?? hehehhee
I love her soooooo much cos she takin care of me like her own sis ! She's lovely , kind , and soooo caring..
sbb tuh laa emma syg kt dia ni...tp x penah jumpa lg kn sis ..=='
xpe2 nnt emma dtg indo aku tido umah ko ye =P ahaha lgpown mami ko mami aku jgk ! mommy aku mommy ko jgk ! hahah ... ko pown dh mcm my own sis dh..ella ni mmg baik..baik sgt2... dia susah nk mara kt org... if u still at my side i'll always fine sis ..I <3 U !!!! ngee~

I can't ...

-I can't talk to you anymore, it's not that I am mad at you, it's just that when I talk to you I realize how much I love you and when I realize how much I love you, I realize I can't have you and that makes me love you even more. 


-I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care, I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there. I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you're doing, but I can't help it, cause I'm in love with you.


-Me, I'm scared of everything, I'm scared of who I am, what I saw, what I did, but most of all I am scared of walking out of this room and never feeling for the rest of my life, the way I feel when I'm with you.


-Everyone tells me I should forget about you, you don't deserve me. They're right, you don't deserve me, but I deserve you


-It takes a couple seconds to say Hello, but forever to say Goodbye


-Moving on is simple, it's what you leave behind that makes it so difficult.


-I wonder, when you look into my eyes and watch my heart shatter, does it break your heart too, even crack it a little bit?

-No one can promise they’ll never hurt you, because at one time or another they will. The real promise is if the time you spent together will be worth the pain in the end.

-It's always the same in every relationship, there is always one person crying and wishing to get back together, while the other doesn't even remember the things they've been through. I hate that I have to be the one who remembers every little detail while you can't seem to remember me at all.

-I would like to stay a secret, like walking in the dark, if no one knows you, no one cares and no one breaks your heart.

No Title..

“‘Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.”
“If you really love something set it free. If it comes back it’s yours, if not it wasn’t meant to be.”
“You have to forgive to forget, and forget, to feel again.”
“Those who do not know how to weep with their whole heart do not know how to laugh either.”
“Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.”
“Some people think that it’s holding on that makes one strong; sometimes it’s letting go.”
The loss of love is not nearly as painful as our resistance to accepting it is.”
“I’m going to smile and make you think I’m happy, I’m going to laugh, so you don’t see me cry, I’m going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me – I’m going to smile.”

i think....

You can say that i look Depressed rite now..i am ! i dunno how to explain wht actually in my head rite now..
I jst can't think anymore ! i know that i SHOULD forget about him .. i do try..i kept his present that he gave me and i deleted his pics ! i did all that but...he still shows up in my head ... WHY???? I need to focus on my college stuff n my own dreams ! i can't continue hurting myself like this anymore...but why i can't STOP!!!
Owh my GOD please please make me strong to go tru all this messed up ! cos i feel like i can't take it anymore !
i feel hurt ... i'll cry in my sleep . in the mornin when i woke up..he's the one that come first in my mind and he's the one also the last thing that in my head b4 i went to bed !
THIS IS SUCK!!!! i need you (YOU) to get out from my head ! Go!!!! i don't want to have anytjhin to do with you anymore ! i'll try to accept this all by my own...i'll be fine by myself ! I DON'T NEED YOU ANYMORE !

ALLOW ME TO EXPLAIN A BROKEN HEART

*A BROKEN HEART is when you actually refuse to get out of bed in the morning because you are afraid of the reality that awaits you.

*A BROKEN HEART is when you think about the individual that broke your heart constantly. You reminisce the "Good Times" almost as if the "Bad Times" never existed.

*A BROKEN HEART is when you are crying yourself to sleep every night & yet crying more & more each morning.

*A BROKEN HEART is the unforgettable smell of his shirt that sits in that empty box; stowed away.

*A BROKEN HEART is the cold shattering feeling you receive when you hear the syllables of his name.

*A BROKEN HEART is glancing at the pictures of the two of you, & then quickly turning your attention to something else to avoid your tears.

*A BROKEN HEART is re-reading his ancient letters & putting away the jewelry that he once bought for you.

*A BROKEN HEART is secretly wanting to run back to him & secretly wanting to just be loved by him again.

*A BROKEN HEART is asking desperately for just one last chance with the only person responsible for your loneliness.

*A BROKEN HEART is pretending to not care what his friends are saying about you.

*A BROKEN HEART is forcing yourself to hang up the phone after you have dialed the first three digits to his number.

*A BROKEN HEART is screaming & begging for a second chance inside.

*A BROKEN HEART is the emptiness & heart-wrenching feeling you encounter when you see him with his new love.

*A BROKEN HEART is knowing that no matter what you do or say to yourself, you can't fool your heart into believing that you will in fact "Be Alright."

*A BROKEN HEART is seeing him, & even though it may be the hardest thing that you have ever had to do, you decide to walk away.

*A BROKEN HEART is listening to that one song that makes you break down over & over again.

*A BROKEN HEART sometimes means: not wanting to go on. 

iM a StRoNg GuRl WhO kEePs HeR sTuFf In LiNe. EvEn WhEn I hAvE tEaRs GoIn DoWn My FaCe I'vE aLwAyS mAnAgE tO sAy ThOsE tWo WoRdS - Im FiNe-

Thanks Fucker!

Now thanks to you...I'm scared to fall in love again. First of all, you broke my heart when I expected you to be the last one to do it. And now I'm left with my heart broken and in pieces and you don't even bother to notice. It's sad because all along I thought you knew me better than everyone else....but now I am starting to wonder if you even knew me at all. 


The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love love someone else


I'm scared of everything. I'm scared of what I saw. I'm scared of what I did, of who I am. And most of all... I'm scared of walking out of this room and never feeling the rest of my whole life, the way I feel when I'm with you


Sometimes i wish that i had never met you, so i could go to sleep at night not knowing there was someone like you out there. 

Broken Hearted Gurl =(

This is what my HEART looks like now...
It HURT like HELL...He's the one who broke it ! Thnks 'HONEY'..
He said that he LOVE me but he's a LIAR cos he's never ever did !!!
I never thought he could do this to me but i guess i was wrong..totally WRONG~
And one thing that really2 pissed me off is he did exactly like my previous EX did! he sent me a BREAKUP TEXT!!!! what the HELL is that???! So i guess he n him is the same..what he wrote in that msg is wht my previous EX wrote exactly! woww... is it a new trend now sending breakup text when you wanna end up the relationship?????
Is that how you wanna END IT?? That's just really cool yaw ...
Look eventhough i really2 wish that i could HATE you but it seems like i can't ! WHY???
i have a lot of question that playing in my head rite now like WHY? HOW?WHT?WHO?...
n Who is Naome? If you like the other gurl..Just say it what is it soo fuckin hard ! don't have to say that you wanna give your 100% commitment to your works cos that is BULLSHIT.
No matter how bushieeeeee you are if you LOVE me you would've find any moment of your life to see me..Even just for a few minutes ! Fine ..fine...Go head..go on with your life ! ya know what you always2 find excuses to hide the thing that you don't wanna tell me ..fine that's cool !
I'll learn to forgive you one day..probably..
But rite now i really wanna move on in my life cos i don't wanna hung up because of you..and because of you im afraid of evrything ... thnks alot .
I'll try not to see your WALL anymore ! i'll delete you from my memory and i'll delete our pics !!!

I HATE YOU!!!!!
I HATE YOU!!!!!
I'd do anythin for ya but how could you do this to me ??!
I don't understand this ...

We both is OVER now...

                We're BOTH IS over !!!
we're done and there's nothin else i could say.. you've already decide it ..
Don't ever come and find me after this ! 

Wowwww...

Again.....someone confessed on me just now =..=
he said he actually LOVE me , i was shocked and i didn't say anythin to him . i pretended like it was nothin happen..lols
Seriously man he's my adopted brother =='  how the HELL he can fall for me??? That's is totally mind blowing~
He knows that im with someone but ya know he jst tellin me how he felt towards me ... It actually cool cos he kinda brave to make that confession and i appreciated it soo badly but im sorry babay im taken and plus i love my man <3 you're too young for me darlin =D ....

I can't accept you more than my lil brother dear..Im soo sory =D

My Heart Hurt..and my Scar open slowly =='

The weirdest thing happened the other morning...I woke up with tears in my eyes...and one rolling down my cheek...and I knew I must have been dreaming of you again
Every time i started to feel happy...I'll cry at the end of the day..he made me cry again by his words . I love him so much.. i do honestly...since what had happened to me before really make me scared to fall in love again...but i do now..fall in love with him ! but... he feel so insecure about this relationship and even on his ownself... honestly i don't wanna breakup with you cos i've tellin myself that it's you the one that i love now !!! and i forced myself to forget my past !!!
i almost get over it baby but why you break me down ?? I believe that you could be the one that you always wanna be ... but why you puttin words like that for me?? you think that i can't handle it??? you think i can't face it if you're always busy with your stuffs until you have no time to see me?? you think i'll be mad if you never call or msg me for a week or a month or probably a year???!
COME ON... you know i've face tougher then this !!!! and why you wanna bring this up now??? WHY NOW????
He wrote this on his wall :

sorry dear if sometimes i cant feel your emptyness...
i didn't mean to leave you alone..
there's a lot of thing i have to do...
i got a big responsibilities to my family...
don't sad..
anything unsatisfied just let me kno...
i dunno..
dis unsatisfication will lead you to untrust..make your choice sweet heart

I feel so BROKEN inside ='(

The Last Song ... Read it ..

At seventeen, Veronica "Ronnie" Miller (Miley Cyrus) remains as rebellious as she was the day after her parents' ugly divorce and father's subsequent relocation to Georgia three years ago. Once a classical piano child prodigy under the tutelage of her father, Steve Miller (Greg Kinnear), Ronnie now rejects the instrument and has not spoken to her father since he left. While Juilliard School has been interested in her since she was young, Ronnie refuses to attend.

Now, Steve is given the chance to reconnect with his estranged daughter when her mother, Kim (Kelly Preston) sends the rebellious teen and her younger brother, Jonah (Bobby Coleman), to spend the summer with him. Steve, a former Juilliard School professor and concert pianist, now lives a quiet life in Tybee Island, the small Georgia beach town where he grew up, working on a stained glass window for the local church to replace the one the church lost in a fire. According to the locals, Steve had set fire to the church one night.

Upon arrival, Ronnie is miserable, hostile and defensive toward all those around her, including handsome, popular Will Blakelee (Liam Hemsworth) whose introduction is crashing into her during a volleyball match, spilling Ronnie's strawberry shake on her. She shrugs him off and meets Blaze, an outcast who lives with her boyfriend Marcus. While at a beach campfire, Marcus hits on Ronnie and Blaze mistakes this for Ronnie flirting with him. Angered by this, Blaze sets Ronnie up by placing a bracelet in Ronnie's bag. When Ronnie walks out she is promptly arrested, reminding her of an incident back at home. Later on, Ronnie discovers a Loggerhead Sea Turtle nest at the beach by her house and while protecting it, she meets Will again on his volunteer work for the aquarium. After a night of staying up to defend the turtles with Will, she discovers he is deeper than she believed.

As Ronnie falls in love with Will, she also manages to form a better, stronger bond with her father. As their relationship deepens, her father collapses with a coughing fit one day. Ronnie immediately takes Steve to the hospital to realize that he had been diagnosed with cancer long before her summer visit (in a prior scene, he speaks of having been on a medication, and possibly setting fire to the church). She decides to start spending more time with her father since he is not likely to live much longer. Around the same time, Ronnie and Will get into a fight because Will confesses that a group of his friends had truly set fire to the church, but they had never come clean. With Will leaving for college, there is no time to patch things up.

Steve has been working on a piece of music for quite a while. Fall comes and Jonah has to return to New York for the school year but Ronnie stays behind to take care of her father. Leading a slow life she tries to fill the three years of ignoring her father into a couple months. She continues working on his piece of music (titled "For Ronnie"), finishing what her father could not (because of his hands). When she finally plays the last chord, she realizes that her father died listening to her play, and is heartbroken.

At his funeral she stands up to make a speech but declares that none of the speeches she wrote would ever be able to show how wonderful her father was. Instead, she played the piece of music that her father had been writing but never finished.

After the funeral, while Ronnie is talking to the attendants, she runs into Will. The two make up, and at the end of the movie Ronnie tells Will that she will be attending Juilliard for the second semester. Will surprises Ronnie by revealing that he will be transferring to Columbia in order to be with the girl he loves...